Him

I miss him so much. When i thought of staying single I dint realize the world would be so tough and mean. Half the men want to date you or sleep with you if you dont belong to anyone else. Why??
I miss him so much. I dont know whether he would have protected  me or not, but his mere presence might have effected so much. I dont think he might ever believe in love or its alliances. I wouldnt even force him to. The world has made it impossible to believe in someone else except in your own. I wish he was here just so that I could tell him how much I love him through my eyes, my lips wont budge before him. :). They refuse to say anything. I wish he would hug me like he used to. Just hold my hand and talk.
Miss him every minute.
Love him as I breathe.
Is it bad to let someone live.?? Sometimes I wonder why does the world have to be so cruel. I lost the chance to be loved by someone because someone else broke his heart. What mistake was on my part? I dont knw about the hearts I might have broken.
Oh lord please forgive me for the hearts I might have broken, knowingly or unknowingly.
Love is not complicated. No. People are. Their thoughts are. I understand that he might not trust me. But he talks to me. That alone lets me live with peace. When the realization dawns that I have him as my friend, I feel glad. I dint realize I could love somebody so much. How can I??
I knw I just want him as my friend. I knw we can never be together. This fact breaks me quiet many times, But it seems m some sort of phoenix or something, I rise from every broken piece to lead life in the same way back again. Loving him and never expecting anything.