20 March 2010

Today is no significant day or something, the title is so because I didnt find any, and the ones I thought I dont feel like writing so.
I want to talk about this one guy....
The one guy.
He might have been loved by many, I might have been loved by many but strangely I feel the world dissapearing when he is any where around. I forget everything.
Yes it happens to all in love, I know.
Does he love me??? No he doesnt. :). No M not upset about it.
M happy he knows that I love him and the fact that he recognizes my love for him. U might be wondering to ask me if I plead him to make him stay wid me and all. No I dont do that. He has complete freedom to talk to me when he wants and stop talking if he doesnt feel like.
I do a lot questioning and inner - reflecting often. I talk to my conscience.
I pondered upon it for long as to why do I give him such importance when I have guys asking me out daily. Am I inflicting pain on me sometimes ?? May be I am but after I cry, I realize that one sensation which tells me I had the chance in this life time to give my love. How many can love and give themselves away without expecting ?? may be a few.... and much more than this I feel he can talk to me whenever he feels so, I can be with him.
He makes me realize how much I love him the moment I talk to him.
How strange...I meet hundreds in a day, yet those pair of eyes are the ones that are in my mind all the time,.. I might listen to a million voices, but that one voice makes my lips curve into a beautiful smile.
Love is a huge risk, you might give out something with the risk that it may never be returned.
I met him 5 years ago.... with no expectations of being in love with that beautiful charmer.
We had situations and he hated me for no reason for 3 whole years as I was told....
How I fell in love with him.... Ohh its a long long long story.... and not of much significance,,, ever.. It wasnt a fairytale love story...nah!!
Today he is somewhere.. there is a lot of distance.. yes it does matter sometimes, but yet whenever m able to support him , it seems as if all the distance disappears and I can support him.
He told me , that if I love him, i'd end up in despair.. strangely it doesnt matter. I wonder why.
Some questions are better left un- answered. :) ....
I dont say this to him whenever I want to...So just wana say it to him through this....
I love you,.. and may be I always will,..No this is not a promise just that I know this somehow.
I wanna support you as long as I live :)